"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something." - Winston Churchill
4 months ago
This year, I have;
Got into debt. Moved out. Fallen out. Fallen out of love. Lost myself. Found myself. Been jealous. Been sad. Been depressed, and wistful. Been so consumed with wanderlust it physically hurt. Guess that’s life.
This next year:
I will qualify. I will get a job, be a nurse, and grit my teeth and get the fuck through it, whether the pussy side of me likes it or not.
I will be a good nurse, most of the time.
I will get drunk (very VERY drunk), waste money, most probably get heartbroken, get injured, sad, happy, depressed, lonely, giddy, sultry, seduced and fucked. By someone who can’t keep their hands off me.
I will buy a vanity case, Iron Fist shoes, a few dresses, and make up. And enjoy doing it. And enjoy looking like a fucking goddess.
I will go on holiday.
I will try so damn hard to stand by my friends. Even if I disagree with whatever they’re doing.
I will stand the fuck up for my friends, even though so few have stood up for me.
I will wear my pride, and bravery, and temper like badges of honour. This is who I am. I will remember that.
I will probably keep obsessing over a person I daren’t suppose likes me. Even though a rather large part of me hopes that isn’t true. And, like I said, get my heart broken.
Ok, I’ll say it. I hope with all my heart (and it scares me how much the following is true) that I end up in their arms, one way or another.
I will lose weight. No, really. I’ve been saying it for years. Time to actually do something about it.
I will also not eat meat. For various reasons.
I will start roller derby. I may have to stop Aikido. But I’d like to think roller derby may fill a gap.
I will start living again. I will plan for travels. I will earn, and save, and spend, and hoarde, and begin to plan the most incredible adventures.
And maybe, if I’m lucky, be in Sydney this time next year.
Happy new year everybody. I hope it brings you the experiences you need, whether you want them or not.
